|
OokookiegurloO
|
read my profile
sign my guestbook
Name: amanda
Birthday: 4/4/1989
Interests: photography. dance. music. books. aim. lazy days. hanging out. food. baking. games. sleeping.
Expertise: making birthday cards. smiling. being hyper.
Message: message me
Member Since:
4/3/2004
|
|
| how come starting a written thing is always the most difficult part of writing something?  well anyway. PICTORIAL! 
wow that's big. XD
current "obsession": DBSK
maybe i'm turning to fobby. hmm. i don't know. anyway. favorite member, though all of them are pretty funny and cute. and they're all really smart! it's crazy! or maybe it's a misconception. i wish i could know what goes on behind the camera. they are a korean band and so they know korean [obviously...] but they also learned japanese and chinese [mandarin! ew! it's all about canto! jk!  ] hmm... oh and they know bits and pieces of english. i don't think they're all too fluent in chinese just yet? who knows... i would say they seem really dedicated to what they do, but who knows the truth these days? i'll think of them that way though. it's great that they are making so many songs and even in different languages, which could help unify the way people think, and what not.
i forgot my original idea for this post... darn... heh.
nevermind! i remember! i realized that when i was listening to their songs and i was singing along, language is all but sounds that we make. a set of organized and recognizable sounds which unify people together. I then thought back to the days i listened to Utada Hikaru, and how i could sing along with the songs and for nearly every word, yet i never understood anything of what she said, except the english portions of course.  I just thought it was funny. i'm not putting these words in the correct order, and it sounds weird as to what i'm saying and what kind of message i'm trying to convey, but as long as i know what i'm talking about that's ok. i have strange trains of thoughts everyday. bloop!
- Rising Sun | | |
| lack of sleep + stress = irritablity.
i have come to realize that the decisions i make for myself, and only for myself tend to consequently become something i don't want.
par exemple:
i went to buy new pointe shoes. i was getting fitted for new ones, and i kept switching between different shoes. my mind was telling me i was supposed to rush, because i don't want people to be bothered, hindered, or slowed down by me. but i wasn't being rushed, because it was a relaxed, slow day. i just decided to hurry up and to take the shoes that i THOUGHT were the best.
then i got home.
POLICY: you may not return pointe shoes after you have sewn on ribbons and elastic.
fick. i was screwed.
fortunately, i was lucky. this time around. the shoes actually expanded just enough, and now they fit perfectly.
but what if the shoes hadn't expanded? i would have wasted $70 on a
pair of shoes that i could not return anymore, because i was stupid
enough to think they fit, and just had sewn on the ribbons.
in a way, this relates to my life in general, in my opinion. i've observed that the decisions that i make tend to be rushed, and in the end they don't turn out so great. But when i ask for help by others and to get them to "make" the decision "for" me, it turns out the way i liked and had imagined. unfortunately, life isn't like that, i'm just going to have to learn to be wiser and to think things over. and not to over-analyze things.
quote:
"To someone else, you are just someone else." -calvin and hobbes.
:amanda
- Theme Song | | |
| french words of the day:
la pomme ou la pomme de terre
la musique
le feuille de papier
grand(e)
petit(e)
l'ordinateur
i like creative writing. well in terms of my creative writing. i've probably said that already. i hope that one day i'll find an enlightening topic to talk about, and then i'll inspire those few who actually read this. i think that'd be really awesome. not to reform but to inform. or to help those people to give more thought to those little details in everyday life.
which leads me into thinking about what my friend said about what our unconscious mind does to our voice when we're talking to certain people. For example, women tend to speak with a higher pitched voice when they are feeling flirtatious, or some such feeling. Or vice versa with a man. Whereas, when a woman or man is with a group of people [such as good friends], their voice is more "normal". Isn't that interesting? I thought that was really cool.
back to enlightenment. [sounds like european time period! :D]
Or maybe, to write/type it'd just entertain people. that'd be pretty cool too. I don't think I'll ever know if I've enlightened, or entertained anyone, but I guess just the thought is enough. Or maybe to write all this is just another form of releasing random emotions of daily life, even though i don't necessarily post everyday, but i think I post more than "normal" people. but that's ok by me. I wonder if anyone does read this though? huh. I may never know. and it shall remain a timeless mystery.
enjoy!
- Let the Drummer Kick That | | |
| WOW! i sneezed. yay for relief!
in the MEANTIME. it's funny what music can do to your mind. well my mind anyway. i tend to pretend i can dance ultra well, and in thinking so, i tend to choreograph dances. i never seem to remember them. so in a way they're like dreams!
i've noticed that when i have a week of ultra stress, i tend to go ballistic at the end of the week. like my brain is bouncing off the walls and i start talking about nonsensical things. i'm really amazed at how many things i can think of within a span of 5 minutes. and i swear i didn't eat/drink anything funny. :] that's just the way i am. and so today is sunday. beginning the week of super hardcore stress.
one word: SATs.
and that's all i'm saying for that part.
moving on. well there isn't much to be moving on about, because i'm supposed to be doing bio homework. so off to bio!! WHOOSH!
- Howl's Moving Castle | | |
|
